After my second I feel a huge amount of excitement. I was so excited today to put clothes in the washing machine and generally potter around the house doing basic tasks.
I am really looking forward to going around the shops and clothes shopping and food shopping and actually poking items instead of trusting the internet and the lovely people who pick my shopping for me at Asda.
But there is a fear deep in the pit of my stomach that keeps reminding me; is this it? Are there any more hurdle to come?
After 13 years of consistent pain at varying levels one wonders will anything else happen to my body. I believe I can handle whatever comes my way, I believe I have discovered strength in myself I never knew existed. But what about others? Can they cope with future setbacks? Can they cope seeing me in pain?
These are all ifs, buts and maybes and may not occur at all. So time will tell............
