Today, I thought, I shall not write a blog. I won't say anything about my husband nor whinge about my situation. But the husband arrives home from work, and i get smacked straight in the heart with all these different emotions.
I feel a heaviness that I am a hindrance
I feel guilt for adding emotions to others
I feel a nuisance asking for help
I feel I need praise (I was chuffed I got dressed and put some washing in the machine)
I want to be identified for doing a good job being an ill person - for still trying to get on with the day and work and achieve minor things.
I never really felt I needed gratification before, just doing a good job and getting on with things made me feel good about myself.
Now I feel this weight of emotions. Am I Still me or have I turned into someone horrible.
Thanks my secret listener for letting me whine. One day the positive things will be voiced, right now I just need tell you about the negative. xxx
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